Protected: Drapetomania.
October 12, 2011
I just..didnt expect this day to come.
October 10, 2011
I’ve never cried for so long. Since ystd to the whole day of today, my eyes hurt so badly..
They look so swollen, I look so awful. It’s reflective to my feelings..But compared to the pain I feel in the heart, it was incomparable.
I lost total control today, and I was told that they never seen me crying so painfully before.
And I felt so terrible when I heard that, because i can’t deny. It was so painful I couldn’t let out a sound when I was crying for a moment..
As I was crying earlier on, my heart experienced a major mix of emotions that hit me with a blow.
The tears just kept flowing, endlessly like how blood flows.
I left because I’m in no condition to face anyone or anything.
They told me they understand how I am feeling, because being bystanders themselves they could see something went awfully wrong too. And to hear that kills me, because bystanders see the story best.
And I can no longer deceive myself.. If I do again, it’d be an endless cycle.
I’m tired of feeling like this, this time I am truly tired.
I’m overstretched, I know I’ve reached my limits..
It’s time I sort this out though I rly hate to..even though it would hurt so badly.
But I don’t see any way out..because there’s no more faith I could use to keep me going..
I feel so awfully hurt now and I’m still alone..
